sick babies

Here we are again with the stomach bug. I hope we are at the end of it, because Ebbie is pissed and I am so over laundry. Carter seems better today, so I hope by tommorow all is well. I am glad it is warm, so I can open the windows and air out the house.
Other than that things are good. Evan is saying "NO,duck,ball" very well. He is so funny. Mimi brought over m&ms to them and Carter takes one at time. Evan grabs as many as he can and stuffs them in his mouth.
Despite being sick, they are enjoying outside. Carter loves to play in the water table. They both would stay outside all day if they could.
Carter is singing "Say what you need to say" by John Mayer. SO funny. and ebbie dances a long!

fun boys!

What fun spring is turning out to be this year. My two big boys are best friends and we all are having a great time. We have been bike riding (with the boys in the trailer) to the park sometimes twice a day. They love it. Evan is my little dare devil, diving head first down the slide. Carter wouldn't even go down, but Evan didn't give it a second thought. They love to swing and run around. I love this time with them and really see how much the age gap has closed between them. What a fun summer we are going to have!!!

peace

One week Later

Well, it has been over a week since we found out our sweet baby was gone. I have been numb mostly up to this point. I've shed tears here and there, but I have been trying to avoid the pain, and avoid feeling. I suppose it is always true God works in mysterious ways, because I randomly wound up reading this blog audreycaroline.blogspot.com and how it has opened my heart. This family lost their baby girl, and through tears I have been reading their journey. Their faith has been inspiring and I feel so thankful to be able to better understand my feelings through someone else's words. The father of the baby is in the christian band "Selah" and he and his wife wrote this song for their Audrey. It is exactly how I feel about my little baby I will never meet. Thank you Lord for loving me where I am and knowing what I need.
I Will Carry You
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming yearsI will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry youSuch a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to
His voice
And He says...I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen
Me
To carry you