One week Later

Well, it has been over a week since we found out our sweet baby was gone. I have been numb mostly up to this point. I've shed tears here and there, but I have been trying to avoid the pain, and avoid feeling. I suppose it is always true God works in mysterious ways, because I randomly wound up reading this blog audreycaroline.blogspot.com and how it has opened my heart. This family lost their baby girl, and through tears I have been reading their journey. Their faith has been inspiring and I feel so thankful to be able to better understand my feelings through someone else's words. The father of the baby is in the christian band "Selah" and he and his wife wrote this song for their Audrey. It is exactly how I feel about my little baby I will never meet. Thank you Lord for loving me where I am and knowing what I need.
I Will Carry You
There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?
People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this
So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming yearsI will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry youSuch a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to
His voice
And He says...I've shown her photographs of time beginning
Walked her through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love her like this?
I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen
Me
To carry you